Mood: Well Rested 
Weather: 28°C, Rain
Location: Mont Fleuri, Mahe, Seychelles
I just woke up so that I could complete this entry for today. I wasn’t feeling too well earlier, I developed a migraine so I had to take a sumatriptan tablet. Since yesterday I feel as though my body has been fighting something mild – I had runny nose and watery eyes while I was at the store yesterday afternoon. I was also sneezing earlier and I’ve started to feel lethargic.
My appetite has hit the roof today, I ate so much food! This morning I ate a pack of Mentos (I’ve been eating Mentos almost daily now!), followed by tea with oat milk, half a pack of pretzels, Lotus Biscoff biscuits with Biscoff cream (!), and as soon as I returned from working at the store, I heated up the remaining half of the fried noodles I bought last night, gave my sister a portion of the leftovers, and then continued to eat a stick of durian cake, more pretzels and more Biscoff. My total caloric consumption today possibly hit 900 calories. Tomorrow will have to be a more controlled day.
My employee is expected to return to work tomorrow so my sister and I are free to do whatever. I’ll work from home and prepare some stock that we have, and we’ll have that ready for the store in the evening. The aim is to be completely free by Friday so that we can focus on our holiday by then. There hasn’t been an update on the personal order box but I am still holding on to the hope that it will get here on time before we leave. Here’s a random picture I took in town today:
Went by to see my mother after work today. I asked her if she was drinking yesterday and she confirmed that she was indeed drinking with a friend. She remembers calling me, but she doesn’t remember our conversation. I’m glad my assumptions were correct. Whenever I visit my mother she talks about traveling. She’s more interested in our holiday than I am at the moment. I’m relatively anhedonic, so I don’t feel the typical excitement “normal” people feel right before a vacation trip. I may look forward to certain things, e.g. tasting food that I haven’t had or being able to purchase certain items that I have no access to here in Seychelles, but the general excitement for the “getaway” does not exist; the kind of excitement that is very apparent whenever my mother has to travel. I often compare myself and my reactions to those of my mother’s. I find that she has very typical reactions that the average person would have. I remember being excited about these sort of things when I was still a kid. I don’t know at what point and what sapped the joy out of me. I’m not a depressive, at least I don’t think I am; I feel general contentment actually. I just don’t reach certain heights that I have observed in others.