Mood: Calm 
Vaping: Vozol 12000 Watermelon Bubblegum
Drinking: Vida Zero Sakura Sparking Flavoured Drink
Weather: 27°C, Clear
Location: Mont Fleuri, Mahe, Seychelles
I don’t know what happened, my sister wanted to go to Asian Wok after her Chinese classes and I ended up ordering a dinner that will fill me up for 3 days. I ate 1/3rd of my meal and I feel as though I gained 1kg. I ordered wheat noodles with veggies, dark soya sauce, tofu, fried peanuts and fried cashews. My sister ordered what I used to order when I was still a vegetarian: paneer butter masala with saffron rice.
My part of the bill cost SCR 120 ($ 8.57) which is quite alright, I just don’t understand the part where the veggies cost SCR 50 – there wasn’t that much veggies at all in the meal. The wheat noodles were cooked well, but the entire meal was extremely oily. I’m surprised I was able to eat as much as I did. Together with what I ate and drank today, my weight has bumped up to a little over 51 Kgs, and that certainly isn’t acceptable. I will have to basically starve myself until I go back to my original weight.
After I chemically burned my face last night, I wore foundation all day and after I removed it my face started to itch. It’s still itching right now. I also wore Whitestrips for 30 minutes last night, I’ll do another session this evening when I’m done with this journal entry.
I had to wake up earlier than usual to go to work. I paid the rent before I left. We’ve been trying to clear the payment all day yesterday in vain. Shortly after my sister and I arrived at our store, we were cleaning up and sorting out a few things when my clearing agent called me telling me to come over to the cargo section because she had just cleared our commercial consignment. I went to Mr. K’s office to pay what we owed the neighbour (they accidentally paid our electricity bill on December 2023), he gave me the receipt that the neighbours issued us for the transaction. After that my sister and I decided that it would be strategically in our best interest to leave the store and close it down until 1pm. We got to the cargo section and the clearing agent told me that she wasn’t feeling too well so she will invoice me at a later date. I’m glad we had left the store for a few hours to collect the consignment because I don’t know how long the clearing agent will be on sick leave for. I asked her if it might be the whole gas thing and she said “no, I think it’s some kind of flu.” Anyway, we then brought the boxes back to the apartment to sort them out. Before 1pm we were back at the store and we actually sold several items that had just come in with the new consignment.
There was a point close to 2pm when the store was full of people wanting to pay simultaneously. It was stressing me out because there were no prices on the new items (we were still putting prices up but people wanted to buy them). My sister noticed that I was overwhelmed, so she processed some payments using her phone’s app. I only need to deal with this sh*t for one more day before my employee returns after her sick leave. I’m frustrated every single time I have to go to the store and face people. I then get mad at my employee for taking sick leave. I’m still mad at her. I know she probably couldn’t help it, but I also cannot help how I feel. It shoves me right out of my comfort zone and I hate it. Every time I have to deal with people I don’t know, I over-ruminate – that’s like ruminating more than I already do! Cashiering and being at the store dealing with customers is something I no longer want to do at all.
The personal box is in Dubai. It’s usually at DXB but at the moment it’s at the Dubai World Central (DWC), which, to my knowledge, is at an airport in the dessert somewhere. It’s got 3 more days to get here if it’s going to get here on time. If it’s late, we’ll just have to do without everything in the box. Sometimes, even if it gets here by e.g. Friday, Fedex Seychelles will not even deal with it until the week after because it’s common knowledge that people here don’t really work much on Fridays.
My mother called me earlier while my sister was attending Chinese classes. She told me that she submitted my bank statement to the Ministry of Lands and Housing. The receptionist informed her that the application forms that were submitted yesterday has already been handed over to the director. I don’t know how accurate this is because my mother is not that well-versed in hierarchies / org charts. So sometimes someone is just a desk officer and she will assume they have a “top position” in the company, lol. When my mother called I noticed that she sounded tipsy or slightly drunk. I find this really odd because it’s Tuesday, she went to town to run a few errands and I don’t think she went drinking anywhere. I asked her if she had anything to drink and she said no. I don’t know if she simply denied it or if this is a manifestation of some kind of acute condition.
I didn’t vape much today. It’s a bit weird because I took 2-3 puffs as soon as I reached the store this morning and I felt oddly hit. It’s just not been as pleasant today. I couldn’t get enough of the cool mint flavoured one. This watermelon bubble gum is not as good. It’s a little too sweet. It’s already at 70% so I’m convinced this does not give out approximately 12,000 puffs. I definitely do less than 100 puffs per day, I can barely do 25 puffs each sesh, I would say I do 10-15 per sesh.
I’m supposed to be on progestin, but I will skip this month. The last time I skipped progestin, I actually had what seemed to be a mild period (definitely a bit more than spotting) late December 2023, which was exactly 1 month after my last induced period.