Mood: Lethargic 
Vaping: Vozol 12000 Watermelon Bubblegum
Weather: 29°C, Clear
Location: Mont Fleuri, Mahe, Seychelles
Last night I suspected that the hand towels were the ones causing my palms to itch. So today I used my bath towel to wipe my hands all day except for this evening when I accidentally used the bathroom’s hand towel and lo and behold my hands started to itch immediately after. The level of itchiness is extreme, almost feels like exposure to a hairy caterpillar. So the hand towels will all be washed tomorrow.
I woke up today with a message from my mother telling me to pass by because she’s baking vegetables for me. I didn’t reply immediately because I didn’t really want to go. But then she called a few hours later telling me that the vegetables have already been prepared and that her aunty called her first thing this morning asking for SCR 500 (US$ 35.71). Her aunty is almost 95 years old. Honestly, I was a bit irritated because my social battery is at 0% today. My sister asked me why I couldn’t just tell our mother that I didn’t want to go and that the food she prepared is just so that she can clear her refrigerator of vegetables that are going bad.
As soon as we got there my mother was listing down the ingredients of what she put in my sister’s vegetable platter and I heard her say “cheese, butter…” I asked her if she put butter in mine, and she said “a little bit” and so I said “well then I can’t eat it, I don’t eat butter” and she turned it around by saying “no, no I didn’t put butter in yours just a little bit of oil”. But somehow I didn’t believe her. She kept insisting that she didn’t put any butter in the vegetables “because I know you don’t eat anything” so I made my sister taste the vegetables first. She said “no butter”. I ate the vegetables but honestly, I’m not 100% convinced.
The roasted vegetables were alright, I’m thinking of eating like this for the next week. I’ve had boiled edamame for weeks now and I haven’t dropped a single kilogram so I now have to find something that’s even lower in calories. I figure I can apply vegan margarine to the tray and bake the vegetables with no oil. Then I can skip the potatoes and the pasta. So I’ll need to buy low fodmap vegetables this week. I can then have those with a small portion of quinoa. I still have quite a bit of pasta sauce in the fridge so I’ll pour that in as a base after baking.
My mother bought a few beers for her aunty at Quincy Super, located near the Hindu Temple in town. Her aunty likes beers so that’s what she brought her. I stayed in the car. I just couldn’t deal with people today. When we brought my mother back home she asked if I was coming up and I said no, she asked me if I was not feeling well. I told her that I “have low energy today”. My mother doesn’t really understand the whole introversion thing. I don’t always like being this way; that what I feel overrides what I feel I should do. Her aunty is really old, still recovering from an injury she had months ago (she slipped and fell). But as I’ve mentioned the other day, I’m not close to any of my relatives. Growing up, they never really cared whether or not I existed, so can you blame me if I don’t really feel much for them?
I admire my mother’s extroversion. She loves to meet people, everyone who knows her says she’s friendly and easy-going. The more she meets people, the more she wants to meet them and the happier she becomes. I’m the complete opposite of my mother, how did that happen? We can start at the same energy levels in a social setting (so that started 2 days ago during my brother’s birthday gathering) and then I went to my mother’s place again yesterday with half of the energy left. My mother spent the day at a funeral and then went to another one of her aunty’s place with my younger brother and then they drove around a bit before returning home. This is why she felt she needed to do something today – because she is on 150% battery life. This is part of the reason why I like the idea of living in my own apartment alone. I don’t mind being around my immediate family, but I can’t have conversations or interactions all the time. I just constantly need my alone time. There is just no fixing introversion.
I signed up to Pinterest (for the 3rd time already!) to browse and “save” interior decoration ideas. I’m trying to be optimistic about the whole condo thing, that it might be where I end up living for the rest of my life, God-willing. So if I ever do get it, I’ll have to decorate the place, so I’ll need some kind of inspiration. If I get the 3-bedroom condo, I’ll have 2 extra rooms to do what I want with them and I was thinking that 1 will be turned into my home office where my computer and collectors stuff would be. The other room will be a laundry-dressing room and storage combo. That will keep the clutter out of my bedroom where the TV will be. Realistically, I don’t ever have people over so it doesn’t make sense for me to decorate the place to fit visitors. With that in mind, it doesn’t make sense for me to have the living room designed with couches and a large TV. I saw the design of the 2 bedroom condo here. If the 3 bedroom condo is anything similar (which I expect it to be), I could add a kitchen island to the open space design, and then add chairs to one side of the kitchen island. The remaining space would be the “living room” which can be turned into some kind of zen garden and floor cushions instead of a couch. Honestly, I think couches are overrated. That way the living room will look like a spa lobby where I’ll have space to play VR and exercise. The 2 bedroom condo looks cramped, I can’t believe some families will probably be moving in with 2 kids.