Mood: Calm 
Medication: Sumatriptan 25 mg
Drinking: Celestial True Blueberry Herbal Tea (Caffeine-Free)
Weather: 28°C, Clear
Location: Mont Fleuri, Mahe, Seychelles
I’m going to keep this a bit short today, I am still nursing a mild migraine. This typically happens when I get off the progestin tablets and menstruation fast approaching. I will take another triptan tablet as soon as I’m done writing this entry, a 50mg tablet.
Today was a relatively uneventful day. I expected SRC to call but they didn’t so I have now given up on them. I guess they will call whenever they do. There’s been some kind of gas leak at Perseverance so the schools in the area have shut down indefinitely, I expect parents are staying home with their children so some offices and businesses have been affected.
Business was sh*te today, possibly one of the worst days we’ve had this year. It is supposed to be a low-earning week according to stats, but we did alright yesterday so I didn’t expect today to be this bad. That said, we do expect the bad days so it is what it is!
I had edamame with canned mushrooms for lunch and a quarter of a protein bar from last night for dessert. Those canned mushrooms were thrown in and boiled with the edamame in soy sauce. Whenever I take a picture of my lunch for my blog there is a part of me that chuckles ever so slightly. I can’t imagine what people would think about the lunch I have everyday. I don’t know if I should be embarrassed or proud, perhaps a bit of both. It’s definitely not easy to eat this way, but it’s the only way I can reduce my caloric consumption without being too miserable.
To be fair, I also supplemented that lunch a few hours later with the final leftover fried chips that my mother gave me several days ago, 1 Oreo cookie, 2 sticks of durian and 200 ml Oatside oat milk. For now I am still at 51.xx Kgs, the drop is slow but solid. My BMI stands at 21.5, my target is 18.6.
Thomas-Nugget (my sister’s cat) spent the day being extra naughty. He was following me around after his breakfast and because we were ignoring his plea for a second helping, he decided he would go bully Thylvethter to get our attention. He can be a bit “needy-clingy” around me as well, so when he jumped on the printer while I sat next to the water dispenser waiting for the water to heat up, I decided to turn the tables on him. I rolled up a sheet of paper and slowly inched it towards his nose. He got so annoyed that he started attacking the paper. It was so funny because he was incredibly mad which was so weird because I wasn’t even touching him with the paper. I think his anger tired him out because he almost immediately decided to stop picking on everyone and take a nap.
I was going through the Vipassana Meditation website earlier. Their focus is on providing meditation courses. I don’t meditate at all, but I am aware that it is a huge part of Buddhism. I do spend a lot of time alone and I spend a lot of time thinking so perhaps there is some level of meditation in there. I find myself very unknowledgeable about meditation in general. When I was in my 20s I would think a lot and these thoughts would be about how I can improve myself as a person. These types of thoughts disappeared into my 30s when I started trying to accept myself as I come. But as meditation is considered important, I need to know more about it and I need to start meditating. But how can a complete newbie start meditating immediately? What should I be thinking about? Should I even be thinking at all?
Years back I attended a yoga meditation class with my sisters and sister-in-law and the teacher told us to focus on energy traveling through our body. His approach was completely wrong for newbies. He started by getting us to focus on a moving energy that starts on our heads. Then he continues by saying ‘focus on the energy moving from your head to your neck. Focus on the energy moving from your neck to your chest’ and he continued until the energy somehow moved to my butt. That’s when I burst out laughing and left the class for good. I was probably “high” from the painkillers from twisting my ankle the night before but still, I just feel there should be a better approach to a moving energy. I always thought my behaviour that day was quite childish until my elder sister (who takes these sorts of classes very seriously) told me years later that she felt he was being deliberately inappropriate and that meditation is actually a really good experience if you have a professional teacher. So I’m definitely willing to try again.
Thylvether is on my lap again. She refuses to sleep unless I am also on my bed settling in for the night. I often wonder why all these cats flock to me all the time. Last year when my cousin visited Seychelles with her boyfriend (they are both cat-people) he was telling us that her cat doesn’t like being around him. She said it’s because the cat doesn’t like his “energy”. The difference between my sister and I is that she will tend to give the cats a lot of attention while I generally leave them alone. This is probably what my cousin meant by “energy”, cats probably like the attention – but from a distance. Who knows?